Daybook

Outside my window…it’s sunny with a nice breeze.  I can’t even complain about the heat…that breeze makes it completely bearable.

I am reflecting…on this thought from Ann Ruethling and Patti Pitcher, “Parenting is a journey – an inner journey, an outer journey, and a journey of the heart.  Parenting brings us to unimagined heights and unparalleled lows.  It has the potential to transform our souls, heal our wounds, and lift our hearts.  But it also has the power to reduce us to tears, time and time again.  Parenting can bring out the very worst in our behavior, even when our intentions are stellar.  Every wart we thought we had hidden will somehow be exposed in the process of parenting.  No experience has the potency to touch us, challenge us, or transform us like the process of loving a child.  Parenting offers us lessons in how to grow and to strive and to seek.  If we choose to open our hearts to the possibility of transformation inherent in parenting, our children will teach us how to love, how to forgive, and how to be full expressions of our deepest selves, if only we let them.  Their love has the potential to crack open the hardest parts of our hearts, just as our love has the potential to carry them through their lives knowing they are cherished.”  from Under the Chinaberry Tree

I am thankful for…words.  Words to express my thoughts, my feelings, my frustrations. 

I am praying for…Landon and his family. 

From the learning rooms…lots of reading, some Right Start Math, and some new twists on old nursery rhymes with the help of a book called I Love You Rituals.

From the kitchen…berries, berries, and more berries!  I love summer with all of its glorious fruit!

I am wearing…a striped t-shirt and olive green shorts.  Not very stylish, but so very comfy. 

I am creating…a small list of last minute curriculum needs like the supplies to make the Wee Felt Saint dolls for our journey Along the Alphabet Path.

I am readingHow to Talk So Kids Will Listen and Listen So Kids Will Talk by Adele Faber and Elaine Mazlish.

I am hearing…William proclaim “I am tall!” He’s standing on the tallest stool we have with his arms raised up, shouting with every ounce of strength that he is tall!  Perhaps if he’d eat more of his veggies, that would be true.

Around the house…the messes come in waves.  The toys are taken out.  The kids are learning to put them away.  Ever so slowly.  But with lots of coaxing, the toys are put away.  The house is clean.  Then the toys are taken out again.  It’s very cyclical. 

One of my favorite things…snuggling together before bed reading and telling stories. 

Here is a picture I thought worth sharing…

Gavin

I am absolutely in love with my little nephew, Gavin.  After you see these pictures, I bet you’ll find yourself in love, too, because who can resist that hair?!  Despite desperate attempts to tame it, his hair seems to have a mind of its own, always standing right back up…perhaps his hair is a reflection of the little personality that lies beneath…time will tell.

Intentional Living

I look down and cannot help but stare in amazement at the perfect little creature swaddled in my arms.  A little button nose, sweet sleepy eyes, hands held in tightly closed fists.  I watch.  I wait.  He sleeps.  Content.  Wrapped in love.  I keep watching.  What else is there for me to do?  I’ve been banned to the couch until my six week check-up.  I’m getting good at watching.  I keep watching.  Perfection.  Right here in my arms.  I might have missed it if I weren’t on bedrest.  Did I miss this with Joseph and William?  I don’t know.  I can’t remember because the early days with them seem like a blur now.  I rushed with them.  Rushed to get back into the swing of things.  Rushed to see their first real smile; to hear their first real laugh; to get into some kind of routine.  This time I have nothing to rush for.  I have 27 more days until I can leave my post on the couch (yep, Joseph and I made a countdown chain to track Mommy’s healing).  I can fill those 27 days with busywork.  Searching the internet; making lists; compiling homeschool curriculum ideas.  Or I can fill those 27 days with intentional living.  I can savor each moment of this precious little newborn because who knows if this will be my last.  There are no guarantees in life.  Daxson and I plan to have more babies, but what if God has a different plan?  What if this is my last chance to just watch.  To just wait.  To just be.  I can spend the next 27 days trying to keep Joseph and William entertained while I read a book or spend time mindlessly clicking away on my laptop or I could spend the next 27 days watching them…watching as Joseph and William immerse themselves in imaginary play, finding ways to make it through a restless summer; watching as childhood unfolds before them.  I choose to spend my next 27 days watching.  Watching.  Waiting.  There is no rush here.  Just precious time.  I plan to watch as that time unfolds.

Intentional living…seems to be a hot topic this summer.  Elizabeth is contemplating it In the Heart of her Home; Sarah is thinking about it Amongst Lovely Things.  Now I’m thinking about it.  Maybe you will spend a little time contemplating how to live each day with intention.  There are no guarantees.  No promise of another summer.  No promise of time.  So go and make your list.  Your list for this summer of intentional living.  It might look more like Sarah’s or Elizabeth’s…theirs are filled with beautiful, creative endeavors.  Or maybe, just maybe your list will look more like mine.  My list is quite short.  Just one thing on it.  Watch.

{this moment}

{this moment} – A Friday ritual.   A single photo – no words – capturing a moment from the week.  A simple, special, extraordinary moment.  A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.  If you’re inspired to do the same, visit Soulemama to leave a link to your ‘moment’ in the comments for all to find and see.

Daybook

Outside my window…it’s beautiful and sunny. 

I am thinking…sometimes it really is enough to just be.  To just watch.  To just listen.  To just breathe.  To just soak it all in.

I am thankful for…Mom and all her help for the last two weeks.  What a blessing to have someone come and live with us and take care of us! 

I am remembering…when Joseph was about 18 months old.  He wasn’t talking much those days, just a few words here and there.  I was trying my best to put him down for a nap and he was being most uncooperative.  I was quickly approaching the point of losing all patience and just saying forget the nap.  He must have been able to sense my impatience and frustration (because they always can) and suddenly he wrapped his chubby little arms around my neck and breathed in a nice, long deep breath.  Then he uttered the sweetest, most memorable thing…”Mmm, mmm, mmm…Mama.”  Just what I needed to remind myself that a lost nap is not worth lost patience. 

From the learning rooms…well…we did start back to school today.  Not with our official curriculum for next year (since I’m still tweaking it and I need to gather all the supplies in order to be ready to start with it plus the fact that I included a lot of cooking projects and considering that I can’t cook right now, I don’t want Joseph and William to miss out on those fun projects), but with a modified Before Five in a Row/Little Saints program.  Basically I just wanted something to do with Joseph and William each morning during this transition time so that our days feel somewhat normal.  Today was beautiful.  Our morning went smoothly.  Both boys were actually disappointed when “school” was over and we headed outside (it’s been awhile since they’ve been that enthusiastic about lessons). 

From the kitchen…Beginning today, we are at Nury’s mercy once again.  She mentioned yesterday that today’s menu would consist of milanesa and mashed potatoes…how lucky are we?!

I am wearing…the ugliest outfit of all time.  But it doesn’t rub my incision and it’s easy for nursing.  Sometimes fashion must be sacrificed for comfort (10 years ago, I never would have thought I’d find myself saying that…life has some sense of humor). 

I am creating…a list for Daxson so his days feel more organized since he’s basically back to being Mom and Dad (now that my mom returned home).  This list should keep us on top of things (like laundry and meals) and perhaps it will make the days a little smoother. 

I am readingAttached at the Heart by Barbara Nicholson and Lysa Parker, reminding myself why I do the things I do and why I’ve chosen to practice attachment parenting.  Sometimes a simple reminder such as this gives us all the encouragement to carry on.

I am hearing…the songs on www.starfall.com as Joseph clicks away. 

Around the house…let’s see…oh, right, nothing, since I’ve been told to continue to stay off my feet until my 6 week check-up.  There is grace here, if I just accept it. 

One of my favorite things…ooh, this is a tough one right now because all things newborn qualify as my favorites…watching them sleep, listening to them squeak, holding a tiny little hand in the palm of mine.  Mmm, but I think right now my favorite thing might be a combination of newborns and bigger kids…seeing the bond building is a beautiful, beautiful thing.

Here is a picture I thought worth sharing…

{this moment}

 

{this moment} – A Friday ritual.   A single photo – no words – capturing a moment from the week.  A simple, special, extraordinary moment.  A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.  If you’re inspired to do the same, visit Soulemama to leave a link to your ‘moment’ in the comments for all to find and see.

 

{this moment}

{this moment} – A Friday ritual.   A single photo – no words – capturing a moment from the week.  A simple, special, extraordinary moment.  A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.  If you’re inspired to do the same, visit Soulemama to leave a link to your ‘moment’ in the comments for all to find and see.

Daybook

Outside my window…night has fallen.  The days are so long now, sometimes it seems as if darkness will never come.  Thank goodness for those black-out blinds…I don’t know how I’d get two little boys to sleep in the summer without them. 

I am thinking…about all that’s good in my life.  And there are many, many things…too many to list, so many to thank God for. 

I am thankful for…life.  Life within.  Life just born.  Life preparing for birth.  Life that plays and bounces, tells stories, uses imagination.  Life that loves. 

My new little nephew, Gavin. Welcome little one!

From the learning rooms…everything is being orchestrated from my perch upon the couch.  We are almost done with our first year of Sonlight (4/5) and are continuing our journey through RightStart Math. 

From the kitchen…today was Grandma Nury’s lentils.  Everyone licked their bowl clean.  And William repeatedly let me know that “Grandma Nury’s cornbread is mmm, good.” 

I am wearing…these days my choices are limited.  There are only a few shirts left that completely cover the baby belly.  Today it’s a tank top and knit capris.  Not so stylish, but certainly comfortable. 

I am creating…still working on next year’s curriculum.  Everything is ordered and on its way…now to just organize all the bits and pieces.

I am readingSimplicity Parenting by Kim John Payne.

I am hearing…the whir of the fan. 

Around the house…Daxson is picking up my slack while I follow the doctor’s orders.  Bed rest is no picnic.  I find myself looking around thinking of a thousand things that need to be done and frustrated that I can’t do them.  It certainly is a very humbling experience for a control freak…having to ask for help and being at the mercy of others.  I suspect God has a plan here.

One of my favorite things…the imagination of a little boy.  Today the box that arrived in the mail became the spaceship, the packing paper was the spacesuit…suddenly we were all transported to Jupiter where Joseph kindly informed us, “You’re getting wet…it’s raining on Jupiter right now.” 

Here is a picture I thought worth sharing…

Everybody got a ride on Grandpa’s motorcycle…even the baby in utero! 

 

Take Me Out to the Ball Game

Often as adults things lose their awe.  We are no longer struck by big events or big stadiums or big crowds.  Things like baseball games have lost their magic.  Not so for little boys.  Early in May we took Joseph and William to their first baseball game.  Grandma Nury, Grandpa Larry, and Noah met us there.  I figured we’d make it through a few innings and have two antsy little boys on our hands…turns out a baseball game holds more magic than I remembered…we made it almost through the entire game…and in the end it was me that was tired and ready to go…not them!  Seeing the ball game through their eyes was extremely rewarding…the real baseball players, the seats that pop up and down, the mascot running around, the crowd cheering, the music, even the scoreboard…everything was fascinating to these two boys.  The entire event captivated them.  Now everything William sees is a potential bat and he continually asks Joseph to tell him the story about the time we went to the baseball game…seems going to the baseball field was a huge hit!   

 

An Interview with William

What’s your name?  “2.”  No, not how old are you.  Your name.  (a look of ah-ha) “William.”

Very good.  How old are you?  “William.”  No, sweetie, this time I want to know how old you are.  How many years you are.  (another look of ah-ha) “2.”

What’s your favorite color?  “Black.” (he’s signing it as he says it)

What’s your favorite book?  “Black books.”  Okay.

What’s your favorite sport?  “Baseball.  They hit the ball with the baseball bat.”  (he swings his arms like a bat as he says it)

What’s your favorite thing to eat?  “Bread.  Bread.  Bread.”  (frantically signing it as well)  Bread?  Got it.

What’s your favorite fruit?  “Blackberries.”

What’s your favorite vegetable?  “Raspberries.”  That’s not a vegetable.  Do you like vegetables?  “No.” 

What’s your favorite thing to do?  “Go outside.”

What do you like to do outside?  “Play in the mud.”  100% boy.